Eisoptrophobia

- The Fear Of Mirrors...

I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I feel so ashamed at myself sometimes. When I look at my reflection, I delve into all my imperfections and wonder how they got there. I sometimes look at the way that my imperfections have changed me over time. I find myself thinking about the kind of person I would be if I didn't live with those imperfections everyday. I speculate the idea of replacing the memories I have of my scars and blemishes with the thoughts of my perfect vision of my perfect world.
But then I stare back at myself in the mirror once more. I focus on the imperfections again and bring myself back to reality. I fix my make-up and primp my hair. I fix my clothes and walk out the door with a tortured smile on my face and go about the rest of my day.